Everything is Temporary.

starting tomorrow.

I need to be more strict on my diet and eat healthy. 

neeeeeed to beeee fitttttttttttt 

A word in Arabic that does not exist in the English language:

Ya’aburnee

Arabic – Both morbid and beautiful at once, this incantatory word means “You bury me,” a declaration of one’s hope that they’ll die before another person because of how difficult it would be to live without them.

this word is why I tell everyone (family and close friends) that I want to be the first to go. 

(Source: emeraldscales, via itsceej)

Been MIA for quite awhile. Although I would love to say life is perfect at the moment, it isn’t, and honestly, it’s okay. I do have perfect moments though, with the family that I have and cherish and the very few friends I’ve kept since high school. To think about how far I’ve drifted away from people in general is quite depressing but perhaps I’m at a time in my life where solitude will benefit me, calm me down and let me enjoy life for what it is. I am working hard still and doing much better in school. I am making healthier choices in my diet and I go the gym now. When I don’t, I workout at home. Tanya is a good friend. Actually, the only one I ever see anymore. We workout together and keep each other on track. I’m still in a relationship that breaks me down sometimes and other times, it keeps me going. Nevertheless, he is special to me and I will always love him. My family is…well, my family. Some of them are crazy and I love them to death but some go too far. I hope and pray they will change their ways but I don’t have faith and I’m really only comfortable doubting them. I try not to be judgmental but it is what it is. Some people never learn.

Other than that, I feel like I am perfectly on track, with school and with work. I also feel like I need to tap into my creative side! I feel so bored sometimes and I need to do something worth doing. Something to make me a little happier. I won’t let my life go to waste.

Anyway, I’m rambling now. I’ll stop. :] Bye!